My secret worry is that I'm doomed to always be the girl that's a "friend" not a "girlfriend". My confidence in this arena is pretty low because although I'm bubbly, outgoing and have both close friends and a wide social circle, I have never had a serious relationship, or one that lasted longer than 3 months. Most of my good friends are now married with kids, or living with their boyfriends and I feel like the child compared to the real grown-ups. Part of that anxiety I know stems from having a fairly strict religious upbringing - I was never allowed to date when living at home.
I have been on and off the site since January 2006 and in that time have met 13 or 14 people, and exchanged messages with loads more. Out of these, there were 2 that I really wanted a relationship with, and although we got on fantastically well and saw each other for a few months, both of them then said they weren't really over their exes, and just wanted to be friends. It was difficult, especially with the first one, who was quite happy to sleep with me, but insisted that we were only friends and it didn't mean anything, but we've got past that stage now and I can now call either of them up and chat about life and people we're dating without it being painful or awkward. They call me more than I call them, though, they both say I'm great fun and easy to talk to, which is nice, but sometimes makes me really angry. What am I doing wrong that makes me good to talk to, but not worth going out with? I could do with losing quite a bit of weight but I'm not horribly unattractive I don't think...? I wonder if I should be more elusive, and hard-to-get, but it's not natural to me to play games, I just want to be myself.
Any advice you can give would be very welcome!